Well yeah, at this rate this blog is going to end up like Mr. Paws up there. But not like I'm going to let this place die out. I'm just... out of words, at times.
I have tons of excuses for my laziness, but I can't blame my laziness entirely. You see, I am very *motivated* to rant in here whenever poop hits the fan. But the poop was too big for me to deal with, along with my PC going down and along with some very grave news.
And also today's post is somewhat an exception. I'm not posting because I had something to rant about. Take it like something of a reflection for myself.
2009 was not the best year for me. Things happened, had a lot of times where I really screwed up, and this time the poop is so big that I couldn't bear to do anything to let my frustration out, not even a word that I could type to express my feelings.
I don't know anymore. Now deep inside me I really wished that I could meet my other half who can truly share my feelings. But I don't know who I can confess to, because I can't exactly say I had it hard when I hadn't been doing much either.
Meh. Screw it. I don't see much hope in this new year of a 2010 anyway, since it's another year into my life, another year's worth of void. Probably another year of lowering my head and moving ahead in the stormy night.
